The Bunny The Bear - Afterglow LP (Lyrics)

FUTURES
It was a Sunday, I was feeling pretty hazy.
Too many uppers... threw up.
You wouldn't save me.
And I could that tell there was nothing left,
still, I fell to my knees, put my head to your chest.
And I said that I was sorry, it just wasn't enough.
I'm not sure I even meant it, but you didn't call my bluff.
You said you were mad, I could tell you were angry.
I said "I love you." but admit that notion's crazy. 
The words that I swallowed may have tasted better had I not.
I could have grown up along time ago.
I could have shown up a long time ago. 
I was wondering if I could come by?
Let me try to sell you on my new life.
How I'm doing great, and I've been fine.
We'll talk about the things that get us by.
Lay in the memories, we'll talk until I sleep...
Of all the things that we could be, and all the lives that we will lead. 
Yea, it's on the tip of my tongue, but it's not worth repeating.
Yea, I can take this, one hit at a time. Tell me I'm the lucky one.
Tell me that I need your touch.
Tell me I'm the broken one.
Tell me that you're sorry.
Tell me this is love.   

TELL THE TRUTH
I could tell the truth if I wanted to.
It's so sad to see, you're working me over.
Oh Lord, again?
I'm so glad to be... partially sober, I've lost too many friends.
How can I compete with the man that I promised you?
I tried so hard to bend.
Don't tell me who I was or who I want to be.
You're doing it again. 
I can tell that you saw all my love when he came into our lives.
Does it hurt you inside to know that I'll be there for him?
I swear that I will fight, till I die if that's what it takes.
But for now, I'm alive, and I'm standing tall, for Haven's sake.
I couldn't tell the truth if I wanted to.
I've thrown ambition to the fire, hope melted away.
You let your promises expire.
And I swear that you'll never hear the end of this. 
These are the moments where I feel my heart skip a beat,
trails of adulthood, only ice below my feet.
These are moments that I feel your hand fade away,
These are the moments that I wish that I had fucking stayed.
These are the moments that I wish that I had put the pills down.
These are the moments that I wish that I was in the ground.
These are the moments where I wish that I could tell the truth.
These are the choices that I made, this is me living without you.   

AT THE TOP
This might seem a little fake sometimes... but that don't excuse it.
I'll pack up my shit, that's fine.
I don't need this mess.
I might be a little late sometimes and we'll exchange excuses.
At least I can say I tried. Just admit it, it's useless. 
I'll brush it off, cause I'll fall again.
When I'm at the top, I know that's not the end.
Can we go back to the days when we were golden?
Relapse, I'll relax.
Get me back in my own head and maybe then... I'll be fine.   

BURN
I wanna watch you burn, watch you go up in flames.
I wanna make it hurt... in every god damn way.
I hope you're breaking down when you find my voice.
Screaming out loud, shameless, and proud.
Just like you.I'm struggling to be a better man.
I just might lose.
I'm trying to find a reason to pretend I'm not just like you. 
I'm struggling to... I'm struggling.
You call it what you want.
I'm better than that. 
I hope I make it out alive, from this head of mine.
It's hateful and wide, just like your eyes.
This can't be true...I'm struggling to be a better man, it's just no use.
I think I found my demons, they're not dead...and they're calling you. 
Truthfully, I know I'll be alright.
I'm living in my time.
My futures so bright, I can't rush my life.   

PRAY
I knew it then, I know it now.
One brick by brick, you tore me down.
You keep your calm, you’re insecure.
It's turning, it's a perfect storm. 
I'll let them find you out, drag you right from your throne.
I'll sit you back up, pull the strings, I'll swing low.
And no, no you can't come back home.
Sleep in your castle you "built all alone." 
You better pray to God.
You better pray. 
You're strong, you're so invincible.
And I'm just a fool in search of gold.
Your tongue tastes of luck, your heart is stone.
But low-key, this week's been miserable. 
Why were we so proud?
Can they see us now? 
So here I am, cause I caved in.
And I don't care where you think I've been.
And there you stand, where have you been?
There's that blank stare, here we go again.   

VISIONS
If I'm living, it's by definition.
This wasn't what I had envisioned.
I remember that I'm on a mission,
As long as I just keep existing. 
I got visions of you, visions of me.
It's blurry right now, and my rhythm's offbeat.
I got visions of you, visions of me.
I'm just warming up.
Trust, I just turned the key. 
Oh, I'm a little bit gone. 
If I give up, it's nothing.
And that would be something...
New to me, brand new to me. 
"I don't wanna lose that light in your eyes."   

HOME
I sank to the top of the level you live in only to discover your whole existence is nothing close to this masquerade I've seen here.
Let's close it up, I'll show you how to be different.
I'm falling... for a crook. 
Take my innocence and lead it in a direction and I'll go.
And If I'm wanted here, then tell me so, cause I can be alone.
Don't you bother me with all your subtle speak of "possibly" and "who knows."
Speak assuringly, when all I need is calmness and a home. 
We're caught up in the moment.
Truth is, I'm caught up in the fear.
Well, am I looking for a picket fence, or just somewhere to disappear?
I've been trying so hard to settle down, been searching for a home.
But now I know that I just gotta let this go.
Gotta let her go. Flow on through time.
Sometimes it's fine to cross that line between us. 
Spare all of your apologies for all the bitter things you've done to me.   

LET GO
Why were you so invested when I spoke?
Could you taste the cancer in my soul?
All while you dance...The banter, the lies.
Let's cut to the chase, you know all my lines. 
Let go.
It screams to me, pleads with me, "Start over." Just let go. 
Why were we so reluctant in the promises we spoke?
I watched it all unfold, as you said
"This fire has dimmed down tonight. I think it's time we let this go."
I remember your dance. The banter, The lies.
Let's cut to the chase and say our goodbyes. 
Let go.
It screams to me, pleads with me, "Start over." Just let go.
Gotta let it go.
It screams to me, pleads with me, "Start over." Just let go.
I'm falling apart, it's what I feel in my heart.
And what I hear is my heart telling me it's over.
We've crossed every line, and there's no need to rewind.
This friction in my mind is screaming "Take it slower!"
Take it. Take me, slowly. Drag me lower. Lower.
Drag me, drown me, break me. Well, this was all a mistake.
Let go.
It screams to me, pleads with me, "Start over." Just let go.  

FOR YOU
I fell in all of your good graces.
I think it's obvious, that I'm falling again.
Your starry stare, I'm caught in the glare.
And it's so unfair when your taste fills the air.
I hear your voice when I'm calling for care.
She licks her lips, runs her nails through my hair.
I do the things that most wouldn't dare.
The back and forth, when we share the air.
There ain't a whole lot I wouldn't do for you.
There ain't a whole lot I wouldn't do to you. 
I'll cave in whenever you see fit, you already know that.Here we go again. 
Our love's a closed course,
When you get to drivin' it's "Oh, Lord."
And all that I know then is hold on, and breathe in.
Breath out, then the heat moves.
My motors burning and so are you.
I'll take control of this whole groove,
Then I'll pass the wheel right back to you.    

ALL I KNOW
I found myself in all of the places that I said I'd go.
I thought you'd cave in but yet here I am, living within the afterglow.
I let me fall, but I'm all I know.
And I'll pick me up, cause I'm all I know. 
I'm all I know. 
There's more to my existence than this cold heart.
Open your eyes, maybe you will find...
Read through every chapter of my 23 years...
Shuffle every hand I've been dealt. 
All I've seen is.
All...I've...seen. 
Cold-blooded, sober sinning.
Half-hearted hopes get killed here.
There's no way you're living, but you're alive.
There's no way out of there, lest you find a light.
Only the strong-willed survive. 
All I am is all I know.